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Rain… just go away.

{ September 26, 2008 @ 7:18 pm } · { anonymous, favorites, love, pain }
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If you think hard enough, some of the moments that captured
your senses will come back to you.

As I was sorting out my files, the rain noisily tapping on my window, drops of water coming down from my ceiling to my wet floor covered in scraps of paper, I came back to the times that I smelled the air exactly like how i’m smelling it now.

A day in Batangas… a day in Shangrila… a day in Tagaytay…

Previous trips with different people during different occasions.

What’s difficult is, together with the smell of rain, the hurt came back to haunt me. And it came back with a flood of tears.

I got up and went to the veranda… Looked up and wished there were stars that night. Stars always made me a little happy. But today, the rain clouds them. I felt alone. I shivered and crawled under the blanket, closed my eyes, and pretended that it was not rain that was tapping on my window… that I was shivering from a different kind of cold… I chose to think of it, for I know it wouldn’t bring back any memory.

As I drifted off to sleep, I tried to picture myself on top of a hill… twirling under all the glowing white…

It was snowing.

It did not rain today. But my floor’s still wet. My ceiling still gives out little drops of water every now and then. Much like how pain resides in your heart, and chooses opportunities like a change in weather to make itself known.

masaya ako.

{ June 27, 2008 @ 6:23 pm } · { anonymous, friends }
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kasi mabait ka sa kin.

masaya ako.

kasi ikaw ay ikaw.

may tayo…

kahit hindi tayo.

masaya ako.

{ June 27, 2008 @ 6:23 pm } · { anonymous, friends }
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kasi mabait ka sa kin.

masaya ako.

kasi ikaw ay ikaw.

may tayo…

kahit hindi tayo.

you can stand under my umbrella

{ December 1, 2007 @ 8:40 pm } · { anonymous }
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dedicated to someone who made my burdens easier to bear…
you know who you are.

Umbrella

You had my heart
And we’ll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you’ll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
That’s when you need me there
With you I’ll always share
Because…

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I’ll be here forever
Said I’ll always be your friend
Took an oath
I’mma stick it out ’till the end
Now that it’s raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella eh eh)

These fancy things
Will never come in between
You’re my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it’s part
When the world has dealt it’s cards
If the hand is hard
Together we’ll mend your heart
Because…

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I’ll be here forever
Said I’ll always be your friend
Took an oath
I’mma stick it out ’till the end
Now that it’s raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella

You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella

You can run into my Arms
That’s okay don’t be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There’s no distance in between our love)
Gonna let the rain pour
I’ll be all you need and more ooohh
Because…

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I’ll be here forever
Said I’ll always be your friend
Took an oath
I’mma stick it out ’till the end
Now that it’s raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)

It’s raining
Ooo baby it’s raining (raining)
Baby come into me
Come into me
It’s raining
Ooo baby it’s raining
Come into me
Come into me

you can stand under my umbrella

{ December 1, 2007 @ 8:40 pm } · { anonymous }
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dedicated to someone who made my burdens easier to bear…
you know who you are.

Umbrella

You had my heart
And we’ll never be worlds apart
Maybe in magazines
But you’ll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
That’s when you need me there
With you I’ll always share
Because…

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I’ll be here forever
Said I’ll always be your friend
Took an oath
I’mma stick it out ’till the end
Now that it’s raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella eh eh)

These fancy things
Will never come in between
You’re my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it’s part
When the world has dealt it’s cards
If the hand is hard
Together we’ll mend your heart
Because…

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I’ll be here forever
Said I’ll always be your friend
Took an oath
I’mma stick it out ’till the end
Now that it’s raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella

You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella

You can run into my Arms
That’s okay don’t be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There’s no distance in between our love)
Gonna let the rain pour
I’ll be all you need and more ooohh
Because…

When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I’ll be here forever
Said I’ll always be your friend
Took an oath
I’mma stick it out ’till the end
Now that it’s raining more than ever
Told you we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)

It’s raining
Ooo baby it’s raining (raining)
Baby come into me
Come into me
It’s raining
Ooo baby it’s raining
Come into me
Come into me

ditto

{ November 4, 2007 @ 8:30 pm } · { anonymous, favorites }
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sometimes, there are people you meet that makes you feel complete. But, there are moments when you feel like you have to leave him be. for his sake. and for yours, as well. More often than not, you don’t need to tell him why.

I have known him for a few years, but I felt the need to part ways. And this time, he knows why.

It has been a few months now since we last talked. and i know, he respected my decision. and i thank him for that.

October came and then the La Naval. I kept on thinking, someone’s having a birthday that day, but I couldn’t point out who. Then I got to check my email, and there it was. A notification for his birthday.

I sent him an email to greet him a belated one. After a few days, he replied with this:

“thanks so much. miss na kita!“

i felt a tug. how sad. missing someone. but at least he didn’t say “miss na kita…”, coz it would’ve made me cry. You know how punctuations alter the meaning of sentences.

I answered back.

“ditto.”

Days after, I kinda forgot about it already. But alas, he sent me a forwarded text message yesterday at 3 in the morning. The weird thing was, I already deleted his number from my fone. I was sure of it. I checked it again after, and it isn’t there. But his name popped up. I guess my SIM still has it.

“Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we want to, but because we have to, because it’s the right thing to do… Let us remember that we can’t force anyone to love us.. We can’t beg someone to stay when he/she wants to leave and be with someone else… This is what love is all about… However, the end of love is not the end of life… It should be the beginning of understanding that love leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson.”

I texted him back. I greeted him a Happy Halloween and wishes God to bless him.

He replied during the night with one word.

“ditto.”

that’s when i cried. not when he said he misses me, not when he sent the mushy text, but when he texted with finality….

a word that would not need a reply.

a word that feels like a goodbye.

That time I decided to leave him, I thought, I was robbed of a beautiful friendship. I was robbed by circumstances beyond my control. But the truth is, I am sure that our friendship will remain, even without the words.

And if he gets to read this, I’m sure there’s just one word he’ll say.

ditto

{ November 4, 2007 @ 8:30 pm } · { anonymous, favorites }
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sometimes, there are people you meet that makes you feel complete. But, there are moments when you feel like you have to leave him be. for his sake. and for yours, as well. More often than not, you don’t need to tell him why.

I have known him for a few years, but I felt the need to part ways. And this time, he knows why.

It has been a few months now since we last talked. and i know, he respected my decision. and i thank him for that.

October came and then the La Naval. I kept on thinking, someone’s having a birthday that day, but I couldn’t point out who. Then I got to check my email, and there it was. A notification for his birthday.

I sent him an email to greet him a belated one. After a few days, he replied with this:

“thanks so much. miss na kita!“

i felt a tug. how sad. missing someone. but at least he didn’t say “miss na kita…”, coz it would’ve made me cry. You know how punctuations alter the meaning of sentences.

I answered back.

“ditto.”

Days after, I kinda forgot about it already. But alas, he sent me a forwarded text message yesterday at 3 in the morning. The weird thing was, I already deleted his number from my fone. I was sure of it. I checked it again after, and it isn’t there. But his name popped up. I guess my SIM still has it.

“Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we want to, but because we have to, because it’s the right thing to do… Let us remember that we can’t force anyone to love us.. We can’t beg someone to stay when he/she wants to leave and be with someone else… This is what love is all about… However, the end of love is not the end of life… It should be the beginning of understanding that love leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson.”

I texted him back. I greeted him a Happy Halloween and wishes God to bless him.

He replied during the night with one word.

“ditto.”

that’s when i cried. not when he said he misses me, not when he sent the mushy text, but when he texted with finality….

a word that would not need a reply.

a word that feels like a goodbye.

That time I decided to leave him, I thought, I was robbed of a beautiful friendship. I was robbed by circumstances beyond my control. But the truth is, I am sure that our friendship will remain, even without the words.

And if he gets to read this, I’m sure there’s just one word he’ll say.

you and me

{ June 11, 2007 @ 1:56 am } · { anonymous, favorites, love }
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i wrote this… just now, i wrote this… this… i dunno what to call it. jeez, i think i’m high on something… and of the many pills i’m taking, i dunno which one i’m high on.

3 guesses on whom this is for… coz i’m sure as *bleep* have no idea.

see? i’m definitely high. either that, or i’m PMS-ing.




“Cause it’s you and me and all other people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
 And it’s you and me and all other people
 And I don’t know why, I can’t keep my eyes off of you”

i dream.

my only medium of finding happiness, of looking into its eyes, and gazing into its depths… remembering every word typed, every smiley ever thought that could convey current emotions… being dazzled by a set of white teeth that i rarely see, because a smile was rarely given… being befuddled by the wisdom that comes from a kindred spirit who has chosen to forget that i existed… but accordingly, it was known, that my presence is in its very heart often.

now, the days of dreaming has begun again… thoughts of what-ifs and crazy days up South, sleeping in the back of a cold, long vehicle… my head resting on my dream’s shoulder, waiting never to wake up. waiting never to breathe. as if by breathing, my dream world will shatter and i’ll find myself in tatters and in pieces, and impossible to regain consciousness… waiting and wanting… to be molded in the curve of my dream’s arms, mindful of every heartbeat, every breath, every sigh, and every tingle.

tonight, i shall dream once again. to travel within my soul. to trap happiness in a bottle, and drink it when i’m awake, barren, and empty.

i shall go where i can swim without drowning, drive without knowing how, and breathe without ever having to stop.

 i shall go tonight. will you meet me there?

p.s.
if you are going to meet me in my dreams, make sure you bring coffee.

you and me

{ June 11, 2007 @ 1:56 am } · { anonymous, favorites, love }
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i wrote this… just now, i wrote this… this… i dunno what to call it. jeez, i think i’m high on something… and of the many pills i’m taking, i dunno which one i’m high on.

3 guesses on whom this is for… coz i’m sure as *bleep* have no idea.

see? i’m definitely high. either that, or i’m PMS-ing.




“Cause it’s you and me and all other people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
 And it’s you and me and all other people
 And I don’t know why, I can’t keep my eyes off of you”

i dream.

my only medium of finding happiness, of looking into its eyes, and gazing into its depths… remembering every word typed, every smiley ever thought that could convey current emotions… being dazzled by a set of white teeth that i rarely see, because a smile was rarely given… being befuddled by the wisdom that comes from a kindred spirit who has chosen to forget that i existed… but accordingly, it was known, that my presence is in its very heart often.

now, the days of dreaming has begun again… thoughts of what-ifs and crazy days up South, sleeping in the back of a cold, long vehicle… my head resting on my dream’s shoulder, waiting never to wake up. waiting never to breathe. as if by breathing, my dream world will shatter and i’ll find myself in tatters and in pieces, and impossible to regain consciousness… waiting and wanting… to be molded in the curve of my dream’s arms, mindful of every heartbeat, every breath, every sigh, and every tingle.

tonight, i shall dream once again. to travel within my soul. to trap happiness in a bottle, and drink it when i’m awake, barren, and empty.

i shall go where i can swim without drowning, drive without knowing how, and breathe without ever having to stop.

 i shall go tonight. will you meet me there?

p.s.
if you are going to meet me in my dreams, make sure you bring coffee.

i’m sorry.

{ November 1, 2005 @ 2:09 pm } · { anonymous, favorites, love }
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i’m sorry…
i didn’t think that i would fall…
i didn’t think that i couldn’t control…

i think…
i lost a friend in you…
it was a stupid thing to do…

thank you…
for putting up with everything…
for always understanding…

i guess…
nothing will ever be the same…
that i couldn’t even bear hearing your name…

i’ll miss you…
everytime that i try to look away…
that i try not to cry everyday…

remember…
that I LOVE YOU and will forever be…
thankful for the moments you’ve shared with me.

fun at work

{ October 14, 2005 @ 4:37 pm } · { anonymous }
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working as an email agent can be fun sometimes… you get to read through thousands of emails that are funny, interesting, and sometimes, inspirational… you also get to know some ‘interesting’ names…

Jeis: what a weird name… M****** Owns Medicine

Me: pramis?

Jeis: bkt pramis?

Me: that’s her name?

Jeis: yep

Me: parents must be pharmacists or something.

Jeis: hehehe

Jeis: eto pa

Jeis: Ag*sthiyan Th**kanayakanpalay*m

Me: oh, Lord.

a lot of fun, huh?

ayoko na.

{ June 17, 2005 @ 3:06 pm } · { anonymous, favorites }
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nakaramdam ako ng panghihina. bumigay ako sa isang kahinaan na alam ko ay nangako na akong bibitawan.

bakit ‘kanyo?

kasi childish ako.

i’m plain nuts.

{ March 25, 2005 @ 5:03 pm } · { anonymous, favorites, love }
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kahit gusto kong ilagay dito ang mga nagpapasakit ng puso ko, hindi ko kaya.
may mga bagay at mga sandali akong naaalala.
masakit pa pala.

masakit magmahal kapag one-way.

masakit ang maiwan sa ere at hindi malaman kung bakit.

tangina, masakit.

sana, maisip mo na nakakasakit ka hanggang ngayon na kahit hindi mo alam.
sana, naramdaman mo na minahal kita at mamahalin hanggat ako’y humihinga pa.
sana, makita mo kung nasan ang daan.
sana, wag kang mahuli ng pulis dahil nag-right turn ka sa no-right-turn.
sana, hindi ka mabangga kapag mabilis kang magpatakbo ng kotse.

sana, maging masaya ka.

I’m dressed all in blue
And I’m remembering you
And the shirt you wore
When you broke my heart
I’m depressed upstairs
And I’m remembering where
And when, and how, and why
You have to go so far
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I’m gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
I’m dressed all in white
And I remember the night
You came on to me
And opened up my heart
I was hollow then
‘Til you filled me in
Now I’m empty again
I should have never let it start
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I’m gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
No one else can fix me
Although sometimes my heart tricks me
Into thinking someone else will do
But you’re the only one
You are the only one
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I’m gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
So come around
So come around
I’m dressed all in blue
And I’m remembering you
And the shirt you wore
When you broke my heart…

i’m plain nuts.

{ March 25, 2005 @ 5:03 pm } · { anonymous, favorites, love }
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kahit gusto kong ilagay dito ang mga nagpapasakit ng puso ko, hindi ko kaya.
may mga bagay at mga sandali akong naaalala.
masakit pa pala.

masakit magmahal kapag one-way.

masakit ang maiwan sa ere at hindi malaman kung bakit.

tangina, masakit.

sana, maisip mo na nakakasakit ka hanggang ngayon na kahit hindi mo alam.
sana, naramdaman mo na minahal kita at mamahalin hanggat ako’y humihinga pa.
sana, makita mo kung nasan ang daan.
sana, wag kang mahuli ng pulis dahil nag-right turn ka sa no-right-turn.
sana, hindi ka mabangga kapag mabilis kang magpatakbo ng kotse.

sana, maging masaya ka.

I’m dressed all in blue
And I’m remembering you
And the shirt you wore
When you broke my heart
I’m depressed upstairs
And I’m remembering where
And when, and how, and why
You have to go so far
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I’m gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
I’m dressed all in white
And I remember the night
You came on to me
And opened up my heart
I was hollow then
‘Til you filled me in
Now I’m empty again
I should have never let it start
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I’m gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
No one else can fix me
Although sometimes my heart tricks me
Into thinking someone else will do
But you’re the only one
You are the only one
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I’m gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
So come around
So come around
I’m dressed all in blue
And I’m remembering you
And the shirt you wore
When you broke my heart…